Sometimes I wonder about God’s plan for my life. What’s my purpose? What’s my calling? Am I where God wants me right now, or am I missing or ignoring something that would direct me otherwise?
I don’t know about you, but these thoughts typically come to me during times of idleness. Often plenty to do, but lacking motivation. I may even look busy on the outside, but spinning my wheels internally.
But then I look back and think about some of the great opportunities and experiences that have come my way unexpectedly:
Excellent job opportunities that I hadn’t really been pursuing (and honestly didn’t feel qualified for at the time);
Tremendous friendships stumbled into that have been enormously beneficial and impactful (and I pray the same is true for those friends as well);
Serving opportunities that tapped into gifts and passions I didn’t realize I’d been given. Where I received back tenfold in God’s joy and peace over whatever modest service I had provided.
Amazing conversations where time seemed to stand still and heaven came close. Where the Holy Spirit’s presence was palpable. Where words flowed from unknown sources. Where I almost felt like a spectator in awe of how God was using me.
In those moments, there was no question about God’s plan for my life. I knew I was exactly where God wanted me, and doing exactly what God wanted me to do. Or at least that God was using me exactly where I was – I’m honestly not sure which.
And that’s where the tension comes in.
I say I want to know God’s plan. I say I want to know my purpose; or rather His purpose for me – my calling.
But maybe I should be asking myself why I want to know these things?
Self-righteous Ken would say, “Well, of course I want to know these things so that I can get to work carrying out God’s plan!”
But if I’m honest with myself, I suspect I want to know so I can decide if I like the plan; perhaps there are a few tweaks that are needed?! I want control.
And then there’s the uncomfortable reality that His plan may (will?) take me through some very difficult times.
“…In this world you will have trouble…” (John 16:33)
How much of His plan do I really want to know with the trials and tribulations that are sure to come? And if I knew of those trials ahead of time, how faithful would I be in following that plan?
Hmmm. I’m pleading the fifth on that last question…
God knows this, of course, and knows my heart. And in His perfect and infinite wisdom, He leads me one step at a time; step by step.
And it’s often during those trials and tribulations of life (that I wouldn’t choose for myself) that I learn the most; that I see God working in the most amazing ways; that the distractions of this life – this broken world – fade away, and I see God’s purpose for me in that moment with complete clarity.
And I’m reminded that God is faithful and trustworthy. That God is good.
This isn’t to say that we should sit around waiting for God to drop things into our lap. Far from it. We’re called to action.
In what is commonly called the great commission, Jesus gives us our marching orders – our “big picture” calling:
“Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
And no, these aren’t just instructions for full time missionaries. I believe we’re all called to go into our jobs, into our neighborhoods, into our classrooms, into our families, into our day to day interactions, and yes into our hobbies and leisure activities ready to be witnesses to God’s love and faithfulness.
Now I’m sure there are those who feel called into very specific vocations, and that’s fantastic! But in most cases I really don’t think God cares what career path we choose. We should certainly give it careful and prayerful consideration, but then go! God will use our service wherever we are and whatever we are doing.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those that love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28)
Often when, and in ways, that we least expect it.